1 Year Anniversary!!!!!

So I have some exciting news for you… if you cant tell by the title of this post it has been one year since I officially started uploading on my blog full time and I am so happy and joyful right now that it has.

Over the past year I have overcame so much and this blog has seen me through thick and thin the past year, and if it wasn’t for you, the viewers/readers of my blog I don’t think I would be doing it today. So thank you. Thank you for reading, liking and sharing my blog I know it’s not much but over the past year we have made a small little community which I am excited to involve in future projects I have planned for both my WordPress blog and my YouTube channel which I am going to use as an online space where people with anxiety, depression, mental health and for people who are being bullied could go to escape their lives for a few moments at a time, and I am excited to be able to do more projects that could inspire people to do good in the world through my blog and my channel.

I also want to say thank you to a few offline people that have helped me through so much the past few years:

Jody: You have been my best friend ever since we were four or five playing dress up in nursery, you have been there for me, as I have you through thick and thin and even when we had our fall outs we always became friends again. We’ve had arguments, disagreements you name it we’ve had it, we’ve even had dance break downs in the middle of your kitchen while listening to Beyonce, while making cakes and serving some cake yeeah, and that’s what makes you family.

Erin: You’ve been there through everything weather its been boys, school, bullies what ever you been there. You never betrayed me in anyway and you’ve always been there, I remember when me, you and Lauren were out one night and you just started rolling about in the grass for no reason and that’s when I knew I had a crazy best-friend. I know we don’t talk as much as I would like now but I know I still have friend no matter what and that’s what makes you one of my best-friends.

Jennifer: I’ve known you since the beginning of high school and ever since then we’ve had a great friendship. You’ve helped me through personal things and public things, you’ve been loyal and kind, you’ve even tried to kill me with a saucepan of sauce in third year homeci, and you’ve been there for me no matter what and that’s what makes you special.

Emily: Through the past few months we’ve known each other we’ve been through alot and you’ve been a great friend to have the past few months and I thank you for that.

Hannah: Your the friend that keeps me, Jody and Emily up to date with any gossip and without you my everyday life would be dull because I bitch need her gossip, and that’s why your one of my best friends.

Family: And lastly but most importantly my family, You’ve been there my whole life building me up, teaching me new things, helping me learn and making me the man I am today, I’ve never worried about you not having my back because I know you will always stick by me and I will always be behind youse so thank you, and Mum your my number one best-friend you’ve always had my back and I know I could come to you with anything and you would still stick by me, your the best Mum anyone could ask for and I wouldn’t change you for the world, I love you to heaven and back and never forget it.

You guys are the reason I do this if it wasn’t for yous backing me up through everything I have done, I wouldn’t have even started my blog so thank you for this you guys have been my rocks the past few years and I am truly grateful for every one of you.

So thank you guys and here’s to another year *clink* (just imagine two glasses clinked together)

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Social Anxiety

At some point in ours lives we will experience the fear of social anxiety, for some people its just a little thing and we get over it fairly quickly, for other people it sort of over powers them and makes them so nervous it comes without words.

For me I used to be riddled with social anxiety, there was a point in my life where I was scared of stepping outside of my front door encase I met someone I knew or the fear of just being judged. I was like this for months, I guess that’s just a side affect of being bullied.

See no one really explains how it feels to have social anxiety, I guess the closet thing I could describe it to is the feeling of having to do a school presentation, you know the feeling where you feel a lump in your throat because you have to stand in front of your classmates or work-colleges and your scared of saying the wrong thing and looking stupid?? Well imagine feeling like that everyday but ten times worse.

Now I do have to say I’m not as bad as I used to be, I tend to be more confident and I’m able to go out and have a good time without worrying, that’s not to say that the thoughts of getting judged or seeing someone I know aren’t still there, cause they are but their more at the back of my head nowadays rather than the front.

The reason for me letting you know that I’ve struggled with social anxiety is because i want to help people who are going threw social anxiety or have went threw it and need someone to relate too or talk too.

Some tips that helped me when I was trying to get over social anxiety was something my Mum told me “who cares what people think of you, in a few years time you’ll never see half those people again” and she was right, if your going to school and your suffering from social anxiety, because your worried of being judged by certain people or your being bullied and your scared of seeing those assholes, just remember that this is just a small fraction of your life these people are only going to be in your life for a short period of time and then they’ll be gone out your life for ever.

Something that also helped me was reading other blogs about anxiety and social anxiety like Zoella and other blogs.

Other things that helped me with social anxiety is friendships, after I found a good supportive friend group, they helped me gain confidence and find who I was. Now I’m not friends with alot of that group anymore because… reasons but I have kept in contact with a few individuals like my friends Jamie Leigh and Caroline, along aside my two best friends Erin and Jennifer as those were the ones that were there for me through out everything, so I would recommend finding a supportive friend group or a supportive person to talk to.

See social anxiety shouldn’t be something that takes over your life and if it is you need to be the one to change it, see social anxiety won’t just disappear over night, it’s along, slow and hard process to just begin scratching the surface of social anxiety, I’ve battled with social anxiety and paranoia for about 2 – 3 years and it’s only been this past year that I’ve started overcoming social anxiety, and I’m still no where near overcoming it, I know that but as long as I keep doing what I’m doing it can keep it managed, this goes with my paranoia when the time comes for me to start overcoming paranoia I’ll remember it’s going to take a long time and that’s just how it is.

I’m still on my journey of overcoming social anxiety and I’m willing to go through the long process, as at the end of it I’ll be free and that’s all I want to be to be honest with you.

Now most likely this didn’t help anyone, but if it did then let me know, and if you have any questions the best place you can reach me is my Twitter @JakeAllanXo Or my Instagram @JakeAllanXo

Thanks for reading

@JakeXo

Time to Clear Things Up and Come Back Kicking

So I’ve not uploaded in over a month and the main cause of this is I had a bit of writers block. I was struggling coming up with ideas and I found it hard to think of blog posts I haven’t seen before, and that’s one of the biggest reason’s but, the main reason is that firstly I was focusing on making my youtube work (which btw I’ve decided to stop doing but I’ll get to that in a seocnd), I was then focusing on spending more time with family and friends for the last part of my summer holidays, and lastly I was starting back at school, so it’s been a pretty hectic month if I do say so myself.

Now to the reason I stopped youtube, I decided to stop doing youtube as I can’t find the time to sit and record edit and upload multiple videos a week, but I am still trying to find out if I could potentially change the out look of my channel, by making my gaming channel a sims speed build and cas channel as those are my favourite aspects of the Sims franchise, and I’m thinking about livestreaming alot more as to me livestreaming is so much easier to do through the week as there isn’t so much editing, there’s no time constraints or worrying if I’ll get it up one time ect., so that’s my idea, for my channel and for livestreaming.

Now that’s not to say I’m never going to have a let’s play on the Sims 4 because I’m most likely going to be doing a Sims 4 Cats and Dogs LP when the time comes so yeah, but for the time being I believe that livestreaming my current household and doing CAS and Speed Builds will be the best option for me to work it around school work.

Another thing I want to touch on is my podcast, now if you didn’t know I have a podcast called JakesPodcast, I know creative right??, and I haven’t uploaded on that in a while, this is not because Ive stopped or anything it’s basically because of soundcloud payment plans, my 3 hours recording limit has ran out and I’m working on being able to get the £8 subscription but I’ll most likely not be able to get it till just after Christmas to be able to get it month so for the time being I’m not uploading unfortunately but I will be when I’m able to get the £8 monthly subscription.

So now all that’s rounded up your probably wondering what’s happening with your blog then??… basically I’m back I’m got to try get back into uploading more often as I love blogging, to me my blog is like my home away for my home so it’s been breaking my heart not uploading and I really want to get back into it because over the past few weeks I’ve been thinking of how to come back and what posts I could upload, and today I decided to say fuck it let’s get back into so I did.

Hopefully this cleared things up and hopefully you stick around.

I also want to say thank you to a few consistent readers who have measaged me asking if I have left and what has been happening you’ve really made me want to come back and upload more so thank you xx

So thank you for reading and I’ll see in my next post I guess.

@JakeXo

Sims 4 and Teen Wolf

Over the past few weeks I have legit done nothing bar, play the Sims 4, watch netflix (more specifically Teen Wolf) and listened to Spotify. I’ve basically became a walking unsocial slug, well I’m mean more than usual and I have to say I’ve liked having some me time the past few weeks and just chilling and not having to worry about getting up early for plans or school ect. ( it’s the summer holidays over here in the UK ) and I’ve liked having a break from my podcast and blog, and now I’m excited to be back and rolling with new gaming videos starting tomorrow and a new podcast episode tomorrow as well.

I’m going to try and stick to my plan of uploading a gaming video 2 times a week, 1 podcast a week, 1 main channel video a week and 1 blog post a week, the reason I’m doing 2 gaming videos is I have 2 Sims Series’s on my channel the Let’s Play The Sims 4 Supernatural Beings series and also a new series I’m going to be starting for the Sims 3 so yeah.

Excited and Nervous but mostly excited, guess this means I’m not going to be an unsocial slug anymore huh??….. nah no it doesn’t

@JakeXo

What’S New??!

I’m back guys and a lot has happened over the past two weeks, so i thought i would come back and tell you guys all about my little shenanigans. So the two main things that have happened over the last two weeks is… I relaunched my YouTube channel JakeAllanXo YAY.. and I’ve also launched a gaming channel called JakeAllanXoGames and the reason for this was that I love playing video games and I love vlogging and doing chit chat videos and I’ve been thinking about restarting my YouTube channels for a while and I wanted to wait in till the summer holidays to restart them as I’ll be able to put 90% of my time into doing this and not having to worry about homework and everything else that comes with being a school student in today world. So with balancing my Blog, my Podcast and now my two YouTube channels I found it hard to find what I would do for a schedule for when I’m back at school and I’ve decided that Saturdays will be my recording days and my posting days… but that’s when I go back to school but for now since its the summer and I have a lot more time on my hands, I’ll most likely be posting a lot more over the course of the weeks but if not I will most definitely have a everything up on Saturdays. I forgot to mention I have opened up a Twich.Tv account where I will be streaming once a week and that day will most likely be a Monday or a Friday.

So that’s everything guys I am so excited to be tell you guys this, all of this has been in the works for about a month now and I’m so glad I’m finally doing it so that you guys and I want to say thank you to everyone who reads my blog, you guys literally give me the motivation to continue my blog and thank you. You will be getting an extra post on Saturday as ill be starting uploading weekly this week.

Thank You, @JakeXo

Taking a Break for a While

Earlier on today I was trying to think of a new blog post idea for this weeks post and I couldn’t think of anything until I remembered that I hadn’t done a podcast this week and I won’t probably do one until Thursday (its Monady right now) so I’ve decided that I’m not going to post a proper blog post this week and that I’m going to take a week of social media ( apart from Snapchat ) to just chill have a laugh with friends and not worry about anything as its my last week of school before the Summer Holidays and I want it to be as relaxing as I can make it, but by this weekend or next I will be back with podcasts and blog posts.

Now this is not to say I’m going to stop blogging or doing my podcast but it is to say I’m taking a break and I’ll be back in 1 or 2 weeks and I hope you understand.

So thank you and I’ll hopefully be back shortly.

@JakeXo

Podcast Is Up And Thank You

Finally… so my friend has finally finished editing the podcast and it is up on sound cloud as we speak, but before I give you a link to the podcast I just want to say thank you to everyone who has supported my blog and my social media over that past months, you guys mean alot to me and you give me something to look forward to every time I upload a post, even though I don’t have a large following the followers I do have give me the strength and happiness to do what I do.

This podcast and my personal podcast is opening up and new window to you guys to let me interact with you more and to hopefully make a difference in someone’s life, I hope you enjoy these podcasts and please let me know any feedback back, either on my social media or on my blog thank you guys and I love xx

Personal : JakesPodcast

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@JakeXo